It’s my birthday! Mixed Feelings..

“I’m not sure if he’s just being a gentleman or what he’s actually trying to do. Is he trying to tell me something? Or he just wants to test the market. He said he’s never been in a relationship because he doesn’t want to play with people’s feelings, so he should know better. Is he trying to make me fall head over heels for him and leave? and say that it’s not his fault that I fell for him? How can I not like him? I clearly told him that he has beautiful eyes and that his selfies are like moods, that he looks different in every picture. I paid attention to every detail, supported him in every way, and was very generous with compliments. If I were him, I would consider it as me being kind too; I would get mixed signals too.

He makes me feel safe. But I’m not sure if I like him as a man. He put my name in his thesis acknowledgment. He let me walk on the inside part of the walkway. He sent me cute selfies of him. He said I’m wise because I don’t talk much. He said, “Of course I want to know.” He said he wants to tell my brother that I am under his protection so that he can let me go somewhere far away from home. He remembered that I said I would go do the PhD with him anytime he wants to if I get the job at the National Art Gallery.

Let’s see if he remembers my birthday, but what is he trying to play? I cried the other day, thinking that we could never happen. Should I keep myself away from him before things got worse?”

There are times when we feel we are being loved by someone when all it is, is nothing but affection. When there are times where you are doubting someone’s feelings or your own then the best thing to do is to look at all the moments you both have spent and confront your feelings with him, it might hurt knowing he has nothing or his words might give you happiness but it’s better to do something than being with this regret of not taking a step. You can think about it and see what you can do.

And remember,

Just Keep swimming !