Stop existing

You should do everyone a favor and just disappear.

No wonder everyone left you. No wonder He wants nothing to do with you. You’re pathetic. A fuckup. Did you really believe anyone would want you? That anyone would love you? That you would be important for anyone, important enough for them to actually make effort? You’re an idiot.

Sort yourself out and never overestimate your value like that ever again. You’re nothing and nothing is ever going to change that. You tried so many times to be important for someone and all those times, all those people, you just wouldn’t get the message. No wonder World has sent him. The World had to remind you that you are nothing.

The same goes for your dreams. You’ve been dreaming for the last 12 years and none of those came true. And they NEVER will. Those dreams are just another addition to the ‘your mind is fucked up collection’. You just cannot be normal with one thing, you have to make up these scenarios to cope. NONE of this is going to happen. Ever. You are not getting any of this. You are nothing. And you’re getting nothing. What don’t you get?

In what you’re looking for there’s nothing but disappointment. And that’s what you are.