Treat me like a Princess

It’s such a strange thing to be so attached to a single word, but i promise you, it does exist. The last time i was called this was when i was in a throw-away relationship. i dont like commitment, i knew it wasnt going to last long, but i lead him on just because it would satisfy me. i just want to be held. i want to be called princess, i want to be kissed, i want someone to want me in a romantic way. i want someone to need me in that way. i want someone to spend their days daydreaming about me, to hide their face in a pillow because theyre embarrassed from smiling so much, i want to make someone feel giddy, the way i feel about others.

Oh.. I feel so useable to people. so easy to dispose of, so when i get into relationships, i break them off before they get too real, before they get a chance to hurt me first. i cant keep doing this, it hurts me so badly. i just want to be loved, but i cant do that when i run away from it. i just want to be called princess again.